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Chapter 2

Chapter 2

	Well that happened six or seven years ago.  I tried to tie him up again
a few times after that just to remind him that I wanted the same. But for some
odd reason he became a light sleeper.  Maybe it was because his dick was purple
for a while.  He said that it hurt, heck he wouldn't even let me kiss it to make
it better the next night.

	Back to what I want, I am at a spanking group so this is obviously what
I want.  The tie up part can come later.  The force issue can be worked on later
also.  I have got to start somewhere, right?

	Question, questions, questions, and I needed answers.  I was hoping for
them by next week.  That is when my husband was due to be home again.  Might as
well get straight to the point, yes I should.  So there I sat looking at my
infernal computer and debated.  Then I typed:  "I want to be spanked."  No, that
was to blunt.  I erased that, so I sat there again and thought of my problem.  I
didn't want to sound desperate.  I didn't want to sound like I wanted a stranger
to spank me (even though maybe deep inside I really did).  I'll get into that
maybe later.  I wanted people to know that I was faithful to my spouse and I
wanted him to have the honors.  That is when I decided to put the issue pointing
out that he was with me.  So I typed: I want to be spanked and I've hinted this
to my husband several times but he is not getting the message. Any suggestions?

	I hurried and pushed enter, before I chickened out.  Then I sat there
and just listened to my breathing.  It seemed like I couldn't catch my breath. 
My heart was racing, my palms got sweaty, and I wanted to take it back.  People
were going to know me and my desires.  However, it might get me what I want.  So
I started to relax and browse around on the different groups.

	It was about an hour later before I got my first message. I opened it
immediately.  It was from some guy in California.  This is what he wrote: Dear
Crybaby,

	One thing you could do is to contact a Dominant man in your area, and
arrange for him to come to your house and teach your husband how to give you
what you need.  This problem is much more common than you might imagine.  You
might want to join spanking.com or alt.com, and list yourself as available, and
in need of instruction.

	If you are in Northern California, I would be happy to volunteer; I am
an older Dominant man with a great deal of experience.

	Yes, I would like that.  It is kind of like one of my fantasies. 
However, I know my husband would not stand for it.  Let me describe my husband. 
I already told you that he was bigger than me.  But top that off he is
physically strong; he could pick me up over his head and throw me.  The man was
in gangs when he was younger, had been shot in the back and didn't think
anything about fighting someone that looked at me wrong.  I know he fought with
two marine guys when we first dated.  He whipped both of them, just because one
of them smiled at me.  Any way, he is a conservative and top that off he is a
severely religious catholic.  Yes, get some other guy to spank me.  I would like
to see that happen.

	Oh well, there are bound to be others to offer suggestions.  I just had
to wait.  Didn't take long on the wait department, in less than twenty minutes I
had a reply.  This one was from some guy in Alaska.  This is what it said: 
Hello, Do something very bad, and I mean Bad. Then when u get ready for bed
dress up sexy like sexy panties, which show the true form of that very nice
tight spankable bum of yours. When he ask u what the hell you're doing, tell him
u been bad and lie across his lap and make him spank u.

	Shoot I already tried this.  Well something similar, you know with the
house cleaning stuff.  I didn't clean house for the entire week before he was to
come home.  Then when he came home I told him I was just busy and if he wanted
to he could spank me and I would do better.  You know where that got me.  So
later I tried for two weeks before he came home not to a clean house, done
laundry, or anything that dwelt with the house.  That is when I got someone to
clean for me.  Well when I was packing his suitcase I packed with it my dirty
cum covered panties with a note that said: I have been naughty, I need a
spanking.  Do you know I never seen those panties or note again, neither did he
say anything about them.

	I still wonder what happened with those panties, they were my favorites,
his too if I remember correctly.  They were red silk with black trim.  They were
not those thong panties, nor were they just plain bikini panties.  These were
those panties with the ties on the sides and the leg fronts were cut square and
the backs were cut square also.  When they were tied on the sides of my waist
half of my ass hanged out.  They were the no fuss kind, where you just pulled
the strings on the sides and poof they were off.

	The next one said: Well, this might sound a little risky: Buy a paddle
or a big hairbrush and give it to him on a special occasion, preferably wearing
something that turns him on.  It might be easier to find a paddle than a
hairbrush.  Go to www3.sympatico.ca/spankinc/ These paddles are really
beautiful, and might convey your message more tactfully than other paddles.  I
hope that URL works; I copied it from google but did not test it, as I am in the
office right now and my internet activities are monitored.  Write to me if you
would like some more suggestions or URLs.  I am discrete.

	Oh well back to the waiting game, didn't think I wanted a paddling.  I
just wanted a good old fashioned spanking.  It was getting late, had to get up
early in the morning to go eat breakfast with my mom.  So I hit the sack, I
dreamed of a spanking that night and I woke up masturbating in my bed.  I had to
get some relief soon, otherwise I was going to do something crazy that I was
bound to regret later.

	It was two whole days before I got my next email.  This one didn't offer
any suggestions it just made me hot and bothered.  Heck, I read it now and it
still does the same thing.  Here is what it said: That spanking. You know the
one. The one where the man doesn't stop until you are properly disciplined. Red,
raw bottom. Nose in the corner. Over the knee. Hands gripping your ankles for
the paddle. Your bottom elevated on a mountain of pillows awaiting the hard,
stinging strap. Back in the corner. Panties in a puddle. A well-spanked girl in
the corner contemplating her actions. Contrite. Comforted. Forgiven. Yeah, that
spanking.

	Let's talk.

	God I wanted to talk, I wanted a lot more than to talk.  I wanted that
spanking.  I read this email one time and I couldn't help but clench down and
hold it.  I have read this email probably more than 15 times and each time I
read it I have to clench down and hold it.  Just reading it now makes me clench
down.  Lord help me, please.

	I could sit here for awhile and just imagine what it would be like.  I
thought I wanted a spanking, you know just with the hand.  Just for a little
stimulation, but after reading this.  My god, I want that paddling that I
deserve.  I want to be bent over and paddled with a leather paddle, no make that
a wood paddle.  One that can hit both cheeks at the same time, one that can put
that deep sting where needed most.  I want someone to throw me on the bed, shove
pillows under my belly, and put me on my knees with my legs spread.  I want that
strap to make that butt clenching pop.  I want that strap to miss every now and
then and get my pussy.  Oh me, oh my yes I want it bad.  God I am getting wet
just writing this down.

	Oh well back to looking through the emails. I got another email from the
guy talking about where to buy paddles today.  Here I get the above mentioned
email and it talks about paddles and this guy tells me...Here you can read: 
Read him one of those erotic stories that you like.  Get in bed, turn over on
your stomach, and put his hand on your bottom while you read it out loud to him. 
When you get to a really hot spanking part, close your eyes, arch your back so
that your head and bottom rise up a little while your stomach settles into the
bed, and say "mmm."  Then start reading again. Did you look at those cute
paddles?

	I had to respond to this guy he was really trying to help.  He took the
time not to write once but twice.  I started to write him back and then bing. 
He sent me another email.  I have to stop mine and read his first.  All it said
is what do you think?  Yes, I would respond to him.  So I went back to my draft
and started writing.  Here is what I wrote: yes I looked at those cute paddles.
I really liked the heart shape one and the bolo one. But I thought that a wooden
spoon with the rounded hallow would work very well. I really like your idea on
reading him a story.  I have also thought about letting him read some of my
emails if I get enough and then he might get the message. I read mine to him and
I read another one from a guy wanting me to spank him. But my husband ignored
what mine said and seemed more interested with the other one. Now it makes me
wonder if he was jealous or if he wants me to tie him up and spank him.  I don't
know which.

	I knew if I didn't get something soon, I was really going to be bad. 
Now this proves it.  Here I am responding to a complete stranger, while my
husband is god knows where in the U.S.A.  I had to find out where he was from,
maybe he was close.  I went and looked at his profiles.  It didn't state where,
it just said his age and gave a quote and some of his favorite web sites.  Well
of course I checked out the things that he liked before I sent my email.  Did
not want to send a email to someone that might be a sadistic s.o.b.  You know
the type, right?  The person that rapes and kills the girl that he met on the
internet, and then he kills the entire family just for fun.  Hmmm, he had
paddles as one, another was stories, and the third was visual.  Didn't sound
bad, sounded ok.  Didn't show some torture site, where he got off on blood and
guts.

	Well I sent the email and sat and waited.  He sent back an email with my
name on the heading.  "Freak out" is not strong enough of a phrase.  "Scared
shitless", was more like it.  Where did he get my name?  I sat there and thought
and thought.  Then it hit me, everything on my email was from when I originally
signed up for this email account.  That was back three years ago.  So of course
he had my name, what else did he have?

	I went first thing and changed my email preferences, and then I went and
checked what I had for a profile.  Holy crap I put my name, nickname, age,
email, everything.  How dense am I?  Pretty dam dense, that is for sure.  Well
here it is:  Angel Hmmm.  I went to bed last night and thought about it some
more.  You know, a spoon is probably a pretty good idea, especially if he is a
bit larger and stronger than you.

	Anyway, I had what I think is a great idea.  I want to send you a kind
of a form to fill out (MS Word if you have it), for you to detail your spanking
interests.  Then, you can send it back to me and I will clean it up into a
really good email that I will send back to you.  Essentially, it will say,
here's what I would do.  You can show him that email, and that should settle it
once and for all, I think.  Just say that's what he says, and that's what I want
from you!

	Of course, this will be some pretty personal stuff.  You could just fill
out the Word doc, clean it up yourself by deleting and rewording it a little,
and leave me out of it.  You would probably feel better about doing it that way
since you don't really know me.  But, hey!  It'll be fun thinking of all the
cool questions, and I'd really like to help you get what you want.

	Maybe I can have it in the mail this afternoon, if I don't get something
from you nixing it.


	What could happen?  He already knew my name; it wasn't like he knew
where I lived.  Wouldn't hurt to email him back, right?  So I did, here it is:
Ok, now I am curious what type of form. Is this some type of form that you can
get on line or are you making it up? How will it help? Oh just please send the
form. I am most curious and wanting to know just what is in the form. I will be
waiting. Thanks again, Angel
      
	What could happen really?  The man was over 1500 miles away; it wasn't
like he would come here and murder me.  He didn't know where I lived, he didn't
know me.  He was a stranger, who I would never really meet.

	He sent me the questions and yes I filled it out.  Did he post them on
the spanking site?  Go look; see if you can find them.  Come join the group.  I
sat at my computer and debated on sending him my answers for hours and hours. 
He was right, they were very personal.  They asked questions about my past, my
present, and what I wanted in my future.  He wanted my deepest fantasy, could I
give it to him.  That was the issue, could he help me with my problem. I debated
and debated, until I decided to just do it.

	I filled out his questionnaire it took me over three hours.  Some of the
questions aroused me.  Some filled me with sadness.  Then others filled me with
a need, that when thought about became over bearing in intensity.  I will show
you some of the ones I answered, the others you will have to find.  Here they
are with answers; I hope you can see what he saw in me.

	Do you fantasize about being spanked?  How often do you fantasize about
it?  Do you think about it when you are making love?  When you aren't making
love, does it get you sexually excited?  Do you ever masturbate when you
fantasize about it?  Have you ever spanked yourself?

	Yes. Weekly. Yes when I am on top or doggie. No on all other positions.
Yes. Yes. Yes just to see what it felt like.

	In your spanking fantasy, where is it happening?  Is it in your home or
some other place you are familiar with?  Is it in a strange place?  Is it
outdoors?  What are you wearing?  Are you being spanked on your bare bottom?

	At home in my bedroom. A baby doll nighty. Yes.

	In your spanking fantasy, who is spanking you?  Is it someone you know
or a stranger?  Is it a man or a woman?  What are they wearing?  How many people
are there?  How many people are spanking you?  Is someone watching you?

	A stranger. A man. Black pants no shirt. Black leather biker boots. 3.
Just 1. My husband.

	In your spanking fantasy, why are you being spanked?  Did you do
something to deserve a spanking?  Are you being punished or are you getting
spanked just because it excites you?  Are you getting spanked just because it
excites the person who is spanking you, and would that be OK with you?

	For not doing something that I was told to do. No.  Being punished. It
excites him is ok, but if it excites me it is better.

	In your spanking fantasy, are you being forcibly spanked, or is it by
mutual consent?  Either way, how does this make you feel about the person who is
spanking you?

	I am being forcibly spanked. I am afraid.

	In your spanking fantasy, how are you getting spanked?  Over the knee? 
Standing, bent over?  Bent over a chair or table?  In bed?  What are you
wearing?  What is the other person wearing?  Are you being restrained (tied face
down on the bed, etc.)?  Is some special furniture involved?

	It starts out that my hands are tied to the post of my bed and I am
standing bent over with my feet spread. He spanks me with his bare hand until my
bottom is a nice cherry pink. But then when I still refuse to do what he wants
me to do he unties my wrists from the bed without untying my hands and has me
crawl up onto the bed. I try to kick him and fight back but it does me no good.
He ties my hands to the top center medallion, so I am facing the bed with my
bottom towards my husband. He grabs my legs and ties something just above the
knees and then pulls the ties up to the top of the bed and ties them to the post
in each corner. This causes my legs to spread apart. Then he ties something on
my ankles and pulls them taught and ties them to the posts at the bottom of the
bed.  Once he has me tied up then he starts to spank me again while talking to
my husband about the discipline that I need. My husband is also bound and gagged
at the side of the bed sitting in his easy chair. After some time the man takes
his leather belt off and starts to spank me with it. I try to squirm away from
it but the belt still catches me every time.  He continues to talk to my
husband, on the proper discipline that a wife needs when she is left to herself.

	In your spanking fantasy, what are you being spanked with?  Hand? 
Paddle?  Belt?  Spoon?  Swishy cane?  How do you feel about what is being used
on you?  What kind of sensations does it cause on your bottom?

	Hand and belt. Fear and relief. Tingling, stinging, pain, heat, passion,
oh my god relief.

	In your spanking fantasy, how does the spanking make you feel?  How much
does it hurt?  Is it OK to feel that pain?  What other sensations are going
through your body while you are being spanked?

	Excited, scared, anxious, amorous, and relief. A little. A lot. A
little. A lot... YES. A tightening a relaxing. A tightening a relaxing. Oh me Oh
my.

	In your spanking fantasy, is the spanking going to make you have an
orgasm?  How many orgasms?  How long do they last?  Are they different from
orgasms that you have when you are making love to someone but not fantasizing
about being spanked?

	YES. Just one. It lasts a long time. Yes.

	What do you want to wear for your next spanking?  What clothes would you
want to have removed during the spanking, and what would you want to keep on? 
What do you want the other person to wear?

	Blue baby doll nighty with matching panties. The panties the nighty. His
pants and boots.

	How do you want to be spanked?  Face down on the bed with pillows under
you to raise up your bottom?  Bent over a chair?  Across a lap?   Would you like
to be tied down if you knew that you could always stop it if it got out of
control?

	Yes to all of the above.

	What do you want to be spanked with?  Hand?  Paddle?  Riding crop?  A
variety of toys in order to experience a variety of sensations?  Do you know
what these would feel like to be spanked with them?  Would you like to find out?

	Hmmm hand definitely. Paddle maybe. Wooden spoon probably. A variety of
toys yes. Yes, no, no. Yes and no.

	Do you just wish someone would give you a spanking?

	YES

	Do you want to feel safe and secure during your next spanking?  (Be sure
you have a way to stop it if you feel it is really getting out of control, but
do not stop it too soon.  Be sure you have a way to resume where you left off,
if you decide you didn't really want to stop it.)

	YES

	Would you like your next spanking to frighten you a little?

	YES

	How much does pain upset you?  (What exactly is pain, anyway?  Does a
little pain excite you - for example, do like to have your bottom slapped when
you are making love, or your nipples pinched hard?  Do you like to exercise
until it hurts?)

	 A continous pain would upset me. Yes a little pain excites me greatly
when making love.

	What do you know about the following items?  How do you think they would
feel if applied lightly to your bottom?  More than lightly?

	A hand?
	A small leather paddle.
	A large leather paddle.
	A wooden hairbrush.
	A small wooden paddle.
	A large wooden paddle.
	A leather strap.
	A tawse.
	A martinet.
	A switch, freshly cut.
	A thin, whippy cane.
	A thick, stiff cane.

	A lot, none, none, none, none, a lot, a lot, none, none, a lot, none,
none. Hmmm tingling, stinging, and painful. Some maybe even excruciating.

	Would you like to be restrained (tied down) and spanked, if you thought
it was completely safe?

	YES

	Do you want to relive a childhood spanking?  If so, is there something
about it that you haven't yet resolved?

	No

	Why do women generally get sexually excited when they are being spanked,
while men get sexually excited when they are giving the spanking?  (Granted,
different men and women are excited by different circumstances.)

	It is a dominant issue. Women want to feel that they are protected and
that their man is strong enough to take care of business. Men want to feel that
they have control of their women and that they can make them into better women.	

	While answering these questions I became hot and bothered.  Wouldn't
you?  When it got to the part about being afraid and restrained, I couldn't help
but clench down and hold it. When I got to the part asking about the different
toys that could be used it was like an orgasm was on me.  I had to push down and
out, like my cervix was looking for a cock.  Does this make sense?  I know there
are a few of you that are saying yes.
	
	Are you wondering if this is real, let me tell you it is.  Every night I
write on my computer about what I did that day.  This guy, lets call him Stan. 
Stan mentioned about posting the questionnaire, and this gave me the idea on
this story.  So I am writing it as it happens. Today I sent him my answers, I
had to, you see.  I had to have my answers.
	
	But when I sent him my answers, I had to get him to answer the same, and
then some.  I had to ask him what makes a man want to spank, a woman.  What
makes a man get excited about spanking a woman?  I asked several more, because
now I see that I could be both.  A giver and a receiver of what is known as
discipline.
	
	So I sent him my questions along with my answers.  If you want his
answers you will have to get them from him.  Just come and join the group, you
will find him.  This is the email that he returned to me after I sent the
answers.
	
	Gee, I don't know what I was expecting.  Kind of naive like that
sometimes.  When I wrote the original questions, I really wanted to get to you
in some way, to dig deep down inside this thing that we seem to share.  Then, it
was a shock to see the same questions come back to me, with more to boot.  it's
getting to me.  I have read your answers several times now, and I am so dizzy
and buzzy that it is hard to work - not that I do much work here anyway. 
Sometimes I am also paranoid that people are looking over my shoulder or
intercepting my email here, but _____ is password secure, and they wouldn't dare
piss me off here.

	Bad?  No.  Extremely attractive?  Yes!  I absolutely could not sleep
last night.  I've never had anybody to discuss this with before.  My head is
spinning, it seems so open and comfortable.  Those questions I wrote were all
big issues for me in the way I approach women and sex and life-energy, which is
a major focus of my life. Yeah, this is making me horny, Ms Angel, have no fear
about that!

	So, on the other hand, if bad is good, then...., this is good, let's be
bad.  Where is the BDSM Library? Yes, it's very nice indeed to be able to say
what I want about something so close to my being.  Of course, there are other
things we might not be saying, I think, but that's OK too.

	I'm going to work on my answers now, and try stay on topic.  I may drift
a little, though, for clarification now and then.

	I can wait for your whole chapter.  I think I am really going to enjoy
it.

	First, though, I think I will go look for "The Maiden Maid" that you
mentioned.  And I want to share a couple of short stories with you from
Serijules.  I really like her stories.  Most of them are a bit extreme, but they
seem very autobiographical.http://www.serijules.com/onestroke.htm

	http://www.serijules.com/tuckmein.htm It is so nice to share these kinds
of thoughts and feelings with you!
	 Stan

	What could I say; I was enraptured, all on the idea that there was
someone like me. Someone that could understand where I was coming from, and
where I wanted to go.  This man was getting under my skin; we emailed each other
several times a day. We emailed each other several times a night.  It was like a
courtship, of give and take, take and give.  I couldn't stop; I had to know what
was going to happen next.

	That is when I got this email from him and it became a clincher.  You
know a sealing of a pact.  It just happened; I saw something that made me jump. 
Can you guess what it is?  Here is the email: Ms. Angel I downloaded The Maiden
Maid.  Alas, a 42 page PDF, so I will read only a little and then get to the
writing.

	Happy delivery!  I received my new hairbrush from Kent Brushes in the
UK.  Some observant people would certainly wonder why I was spending good money
on a hairbrush.  It is all natural (almost), 9" long and 2-7/8 wide, with
moderately wood.  Nice wood.  Last week they sent me the wrong hairbrush, the
same style but obviously the "child-size" version, so they let me keep the small
one and sent me the big one in addition.  Now I have one to spank the bottom,
and one to spank where it is a little more sensitive.  BzzzzZZZZZzzzZZZ.

	Just thinking of your special needs,
	Stan

	Did you figure it out?  Maybe my return email will help.   This is it: I
like the way you write. The descriptions are so; oh I don't know how to describe
it.  It makes me want to feel that hairbrush. Heck it makes me want to feel both
of them one right after the other. Is it wrong? Does it happen? Can I have it
happen? Why does a good catholic girl like me have these feelings that I can't
get rid of?

       I finished my first chapter and now I am depressed and I am questioning
myself through you about my own feelings. This is so unreal. Am I right that I
should want more? Should I be happy with what I got?

       Do you know why I didn't untie my husband when I started crying so that
he could comfort me? I'll tell you why, I felt guilty for wanting something that
he thinks are perverse and I have gone to confession over this issue already. I
know he feels inadequate in the bedroom but I feel it is his own fault. If he
would just give me what I need instead of jewelry when he feels inadequate then
I would be happy.
      
       I used to wear rings on every finger when he took me out. I have an
entire jewelry box over flowing with his little gifts. Bracelets, necklaces,
rings, and pins. I don't wear any of them any more. I don't even wear my wedding
set anymore. He still gives them to me trying to make up for what he can't give
or what he won't give. Well I am going to send this now. I cut out about half.

	We wrote a few emails in between, but I couldn't forget what he wrote
here.  I couldn't get it out of my mind.  I had to act, I had to have the things
that he said, some is mentioned above some isn't.  Maybe I am a bad person,
maybe I am just normal, and maybe I just don't care anymore.  I had to
correspond with him; I was addicted to the way he made me feel.  That is when I
wrote this: 
      
	You will not believe what I went and bought today!!!!! I don't believe I
bought it. I was so embarrassed it was unreal. The lady at the counter
(Wal-Mart, do you have this dime store where you are?) gave me a strange look
and asked if I was having a good day? I could only smile and say yes. I wonder
if she thought I was crazy. I wonder if she knew what I wanted that hairbrush
for. It was my only purchase there and usually people go there to buy a lot of
items. But Walgreen's didn't have a wooden hairbrush of any kind and I wanted
one bad, from reading that email. Just the thought made me hot.

	I also bought nipple clamps (at adult book store) with a chain
connecting with another chain that connects and makes a T that is a clit clamp.
Hmmm...Something else to hide.

	I didn't have much time to test them out real good and thoroughly?
Before I had to finish running errands. But I did go home and gave myself 10
swats to each buttock and then 5 to my pussy then 10 more to the more center
part of each cheek and 5 more to my pussy and then 10 more to each cheek more
next to the crack of my ass and then I forced myself to give myself 5 more to my
pussy.

	You will not believe the feeling that I had. My butt was a bright pink
and my pussy was swollen and wet. 

	I had a hard time driving while doing my errands; my bottom was quite
warm all over. Later tonight when I sit (should say kneel) and take a brake from
life, I am going to try it again but this time instead of 10 and 5, I think I
will try 20 and 10.

	Do you want to know what the brush looks like? It is about seven inches
long and about three inches wide at the widest point. The handle is about 3/8 of
an inch think with it getting thicker as it gets to the bristle part I would
have to say about 1/2" to maybe 5/8" thick.
	
	Then he wrote something to the point that maybe I should watch myself,
that maybe I would like that hairbrush too much.  I had to try it some more and
that is what I did later that night.  But I wasn't getting it, well you can see.
	
       Ok, I must be doing something wrong here because I cannot get the clit
clip to stay on unless it is squeezed to the hurting point instantly (I have a
very small clit at least I think it is small). The nipple clips are out of this
world. Only thing is with the T part of the clit clip hanging down it gets
caught in the carpet (when on hands and knees in front of dressing mirror) and
can give a strong tug. But the weight of the chain hanging down does feel ummm
supper.

       Another problem I can't get a good swing with the hairbrush to feel that
instant OOOOOH. It is just like build up, build up, and more build up. I have to
be doing something wrong. Do you have any suggestions for me? Please
help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
	
	Crybaby,  As for the clit clip.  First thought is squeeze it to the
hurting point, but first be sure your bottom is well warmed by that hairbrush
and it won't hurt so much.  Hmmm.  Maybe not an acceptable idea.  Second
thought, I guess these are the springy type with the screw in them, or are they
the tweezers type with the little sliding ring.  You know, I couldn't get it to
stay on either.  Try getting the little thing as long and hard as you can, and
put the clip as far back on it as you can.  It has to be kind of dry, which will
be a problem, I imagine.  Third, I could come over and hold it in place,
occasionally jiggling it as the occasion demanded.

	First thought, the Hairbrush is a little too small.  A bigger one will
bite more.  Practice holding it lightly and flipping it by the handle like a
little bat.  I have no trouble swinging this thing at myself rather painfully,
but maybe I am a pain wimp these days.  It takes practice.  I like what you are
saying, my little submissive friend.  Already it isn't painful enough for you. 
Second, maybe you could go shopping tomorrow for a nice ruler, from the office
supply store.  One of those heavy ones with the metal strip on one edge.  They
sting very nicely and have a longer reach.  Third idea, I could come over, tie
you up, and show you how it is supposed to feel.  You would like that.

	Keep working yourself over with that hairbrush.  I want you to send me a
full report tonight on how it feels on your bottom, and how it affects your
attitude and emotional being.  No masturbating until you have done all you can
with the Hairbrush.  You hear me young lady?  Shit, just try hitting yourself as
hard and as fast as you can with it, right in the same spot.


       Don't keep the nipple clamps on for more than 20 or 30 minutes without
removing them for a few minutes, as the decreased blood flow in the nipples can
cause nerve damage if left on too long.
	 Stan

       Hey Stan, it worked.  It does all depend on how the brush is gripped. 
How the wrist is held, if the wrist swings then it stings.  If the wrist is
stable, then you have a better sting with a little oomph after.  You need
messenger, so that we can like do this while talking.  I came while spanking my
pussy.  But it can be more, I know it can.  I think I also bruised it, it is
like really hurting badly.  You know when you said to just hit the same spot
well I spanked my butt for about 100 swats and my pussy forty.  That is when it
hit me; I was on the pussy spanking my pussy with that brush.  I got to ten and
I was like I could take a few more there.  Then I just like lost control and was
beating my poor pussy to death.  I don't know how many times I spanked my pussy,
because I started to cum and I just couldn't stop the slap of the brush.  My
hairbrush now smells like pussy.
      
	Yes, he downloaded messenger.  Yes we talked, or should I say typed.  My
stupid kitten, I guess, chewed the cord in two so I went and bought a new
microphone today.  Tonight he will be there for me.  He will talk me through it. 
Last night when I spanked myself, I really bruised my poor little pussy on the
side.  It still hurts to sit.  I have to send another email to him answering
what he sent to me. This is part of what I say, the rest is for him alone.  You
all know how that is right?

       Stan, you say: It is like setting her mind and heart on fire a profound
and clear fire.  At the same time, it is about turning her on to her own fears
and anxieties and unexamined expectations about sensation and physical response
(well, it sounds good, but I am not sure what that means). (This came from his
answers.)
      
	You do what it means, I felt part of it. I explored part of it with you
last night afterwards. 



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